Nothing too exciting to report today. Just keeping at it!
Calories: 1590
Water: 8 glasses
Vitamin: YES.
Exercise: about a two mile walk or so (possibly more) with my puppy.
**My ultimate goal for myself (mainly for this summer) is to get back to the size I was last summer. I was by no means "stick thin" then, but I felt confident in my own body. For motivation (starting with the 90 day challenge..about 3 months prior to this challenge), I took pictures of myself in some clothes and swim suits that I fit into last summer. I looked back on those pictures when I was having a low motivation day, was craving too much food, or just needed a good reminder as to why I was doing this challenge. I'm toying around with the idea of posting those pictures, as well as the weeks progress, so it's not only motivation to myself, but to others of you who are possibly reading this. Trouble is, I don't know if I'm that brave yet. I don't know....we'll see.
Saturday, May 15
L: Day 5
Well today, I started off counting my calories, and then I kind of went downhill in terms of keeping track. HOWEVER, doing a quick mental look back of how I did today, I feel like I ate mainly when I needed to, not just for boredom. In fact, this evening I avoided a big bowl of ice cream with a big bowl of fresh strawberries, and a would-be doughnut stop ( I was craving) for a 100-calorie ice cream bar at home. For me it's been extremely important to acknowledge my cravings, not to pretend they don't exist. Over the years I've tried so many diets and fads in which I had to deny what I wanted. Looking back, that is the reason that many of those failed. I need to treat myself every once in a while. The trick is substituting lower-calorie foods in doing so.
I was thinking today about the goals that I have. My entire life (since about age 9), I've been struggling with my weight. I have seen the number that appears on the scale and have been intimidated. I no longer have a NUMBER as my goal, because I realize now that if I go at it with that perspective, I will never be happy. My main goal: to be happy and confident in my own skin. To love my body for what it is, not for how much I weigh alone.
My update (other than calories)
water: 8 glasses.
vitamin: i forgot. oops. tomorrow.....
exercise: 20 min on the stationary bike, some lifting of weights.
*I get my knee checked out next week and will know then what I am / am not able to do in terms of exercise.
**For the last couple days I've been wearing a pair of sweatpants that I got as a senior in high school (2 years ago). I have not been able to fit into them since then. But I tried them on and guess what.... THEY FIT! Woot woot! Go-o-o progress.
I was thinking today about the goals that I have. My entire life (since about age 9), I've been struggling with my weight. I have seen the number that appears on the scale and have been intimidated. I no longer have a NUMBER as my goal, because I realize now that if I go at it with that perspective, I will never be happy. My main goal: to be happy and confident in my own skin. To love my body for what it is, not for how much I weigh alone.
My update (other than calories)
water: 8 glasses.
vitamin: i forgot. oops. tomorrow.....
exercise: 20 min on the stationary bike, some lifting of weights.
*I get my knee checked out next week and will know then what I am / am not able to do in terms of exercise.
**For the last couple days I've been wearing a pair of sweatpants that I got as a senior in high school (2 years ago). I have not been able to fit into them since then. But I tried them on and guess what.... THEY FIT! Woot woot! Go-o-o progress.
Friday, May 14
I almost forgot
While jogging today, I made the decision that I would jog the whole stretch that I've been doing the last few days- I would jog there and back and I decided to about half-way there. Then I realized my body is getting tired. You know the feeling when your body is clearly able to go farther and the tiredness will go in just a bit? Knowing that this tiredness was just a feeling that originates from my lazy, "if you go this far now, you'll have to go this far every time.. you don't want to start doing that now!" I changed my focus. Literally. Normally I'm looking pretty much straight ahead. I would put my focus on getting to the end, to be finished and done. I changed my focus, instead of looking at my goal and getting discouraged because "it looks so far away!" I looked to the 10 feet ahead of me. I can jog those 10 feet. It was a mental game with myself.
Focusing on just jogging the 10 ft in front of me, then the next 10, and on and on till I knew I was closing in on my goal made it not only easier, it made it more enjoyable too. I checked my form frequently, applying some tips I found and made sure to keep my gaze about 10 feet in front of me. It was tempting near the end to look up more and set my eyes on the final goal. Looking at the goal was something that would be counter-productive for me, I just didn't do it until it was in my 10ft gaze. Reaching the stop light where my goal was I felt good, I mean really good. Mentally I was stronger, and of course physically too.
As I was jogging I realized that looking at the "final goal" for me and no doubt others, isn't the best thing. It seems too hard, difficult and there is so much WORK to do to reach that goal, especially when it comes to weight-loss. It's easy to look at where I want to be and be discouraged and mentally give-up. My body "felt" tired and I could have walked the rest of the way, yet my body and I am were still capable of so much more. Weight-loss takes time which is has always been the killer for me. I get lost in the process because I've always been focused on the goal, the end, the destination. Hello! Good health isn't a destination. Good health is like keeping my gaze 10 ft ahead to keep jogging- it's small progress.
Since Day One on this blog I have shifted my focus to developing healthy habits: working out regularly, watching what I eat, taking a multi-vitamin, drinking lots of water; and ditching bad ones: being lazy, eating junk food, binging and emotional eating. Overtime I may reach my goal weight, which would be great- it's just the main point is becoming healthy and developing healthy habits. Makes me think how many other ways this analogy applies?
Focusing on just jogging the 10 ft in front of me, then the next 10, and on and on till I knew I was closing in on my goal made it not only easier, it made it more enjoyable too. I checked my form frequently, applying some tips I found and made sure to keep my gaze about 10 feet in front of me. It was tempting near the end to look up more and set my eyes on the final goal. Looking at the goal was something that would be counter-productive for me, I just didn't do it until it was in my 10ft gaze. Reaching the stop light where my goal was I felt good, I mean really good. Mentally I was stronger, and of course physically too.
As I was jogging I realized that looking at the "final goal" for me and no doubt others, isn't the best thing. It seems too hard, difficult and there is so much WORK to do to reach that goal, especially when it comes to weight-loss. It's easy to look at where I want to be and be discouraged and mentally give-up. My body "felt" tired and I could have walked the rest of the way, yet my body and I am were still capable of so much more. Weight-loss takes time which is has always been the killer for me. I get lost in the process because I've always been focused on the goal, the end, the destination. Hello! Good health isn't a destination. Good health is like keeping my gaze 10 ft ahead to keep jogging- it's small progress.
Since Day One on this blog I have shifted my focus to developing healthy habits: working out regularly, watching what I eat, taking a multi-vitamin, drinking lots of water; and ditching bad ones: being lazy, eating junk food, binging and emotional eating. Overtime I may reach my goal weight, which would be great- it's just the main point is becoming healthy and developing healthy habits. Makes me think how many other ways this analogy applies?
C: D 6
I can't believe that it's almost been a whole week now! Cool fact: today I jogged a WHOLE 1.2 miles!!! I'm seriously celebrating in my head right now! After not training for over 5 months, jogging over a mile is a big deal to me. :) This week, so far, I've put in a total of 18.7 miles now- how crazy is that?!
Update
Food: Special K w/soymilk, Eggo waffle with 1/4 tbsp of almond butter, Orange, a low-fat String Cheese, 6" Veggie Delight on 9-grain bread from Subway, a serving of my Salsa Salad, some watermelon (perfect summer weather food!!!), and finished the day with a lite peach yogurt.
Calories: exactly 1200!
Vitamin: again, yes
Water: 12 glasses
Exercise: jogged 1.2 miles and walked 1.4 miles.
Update
Food: Special K w/soymilk, Eggo waffle with 1/4 tbsp of almond butter, Orange, a low-fat String Cheese, 6" Veggie Delight on 9-grain bread from Subway, a serving of my Salsa Salad, some watermelon (perfect summer weather food!!!), and finished the day with a lite peach yogurt.
Calories: exactly 1200!
Vitamin: again, yes
Water: 12 glasses
Exercise: jogged 1.2 miles and walked 1.4 miles.
L: Day 4
Well I've got to say, the new sunshine-y weather is definitely motivation to step up the exercise...swimsuit season here I come!
Here's my update for the day-
Food: 1560 calories
Water: 10 glasses
Vitamin: 1
Exercise: 45 min swim + 20 min on the stationary bike with about a 20 min workout on the weights....all despite the knee injury. Let's hope is stays somewhat controlled.
:)
Here's my update for the day-
Food: 1560 calories
Water: 10 glasses
Vitamin: 1
Exercise: 45 min swim + 20 min on the stationary bike with about a 20 min workout on the weights....all despite the knee injury. Let's hope is stays somewhat controlled.
:)
Thursday, May 13
C: D 5
Happy Thursday! I love Thursdays- not sure exactly why, but I do. I used to be a fan of Wednesdays, but since I've graduated from college it's changed. Lol!
Foods: 2 Eggo waffles with a tbsp of almond butter each topped with slices of banana, 8 oz. of soymilk, bowl of salsa salad (recipe below), a lite peach yogurt, a tall skinny iced latte from Starbucks, and a serving of pears, 8 oz of chocolate soymilk.
Calories: 1226- right on the money.
Vitamin: uh-huh!
Water: like 10 glasses? need to drink MORE!
Exercise: jogged 1.5 miles (WOOT!!!), walked 2 miles + workout dvd 30 minutes
Salsa Salad:
1 loosely packed cup of Hearts of Romaine- make sure to wash them!
1/2 cup loosely packed Spinach leaves- stems removed
1/4 cup chopped avocado
1/4 cup chopped broccoli
1/4 cup chopped tomatoes
1/4 cup shredded cheddar cheese
4 Tbsp salsa- your choice
Mix everything together for a delicious salad that's only 207 calories, the salsa makes a healthier dressing than most and has plenty of vitamins, veggies and sizzle!!
Before enjoying a coffee with my dear auntie and cousin I discovered Starbucks Delicious Drinks Under 200 Calories website. Starbucks has posted the nutritional information for their products and list some great tasting drinks that are more waist friendly. ;) They even have a section for foods that are under 300 calories too! Here's to eating smarter!
Foods: 2 Eggo waffles with a tbsp of almond butter each topped with slices of banana, 8 oz. of soymilk, bowl of salsa salad (recipe below), a lite peach yogurt, a tall skinny iced latte from Starbucks, and a serving of pears, 8 oz of chocolate soymilk.
Calories: 1226- right on the money.
Vitamin: uh-huh!
Water: like 10 glasses? need to drink MORE!
Exercise: jogged 1.5 miles (WOOT!!!), walked 2 miles + workout dvd 30 minutes
Salsa Salad:
1 loosely packed cup of Hearts of Romaine- make sure to wash them!
1/2 cup loosely packed Spinach leaves- stems removed
1/4 cup chopped avocado
1/4 cup chopped broccoli
1/4 cup chopped tomatoes
1/4 cup shredded cheddar cheese
4 Tbsp salsa- your choice
Mix everything together for a delicious salad that's only 207 calories, the salsa makes a healthier dressing than most and has plenty of vitamins, veggies and sizzle!!
Before enjoying a coffee with my dear auntie and cousin I discovered Starbucks Delicious Drinks Under 200 Calories website. Starbucks has posted the nutritional information for their products and list some great tasting drinks that are more waist friendly. ;) They even have a section for foods that are under 300 calories too! Here's to eating smarter!
Wednesday, May 12
L: Day 3
Well...today I did GREAT! About keeping on track that is. Despite my busy schedule I was able to keep relatively full and able to work out today. Woot woot! :)
Food:
Salad (spinach, tomatoes, lettuce, cheese, bacon...yes, I said bacon), 2 Special K Protein bars, 1 granola bar, 1 banana, 1 bag of 100-calorie baked Chex mix, 1 cheese stick, 1 cup yogurt, bowl of soup, 1 large orange, 2 pieces of toast, 1 cup of hot chocolate, and 1 100-calorie ice cream bar.
Total calories: 1577
Water: 11 glasses
Vitamin: yessir
Exercise: 20 min on the elliptical, about 20 minutes lifting, 15 minutes on a cross-country ski-like machine. Lol!
*I'm not sure how I'll do on my exercise from here on out...my knee is literally KILLING me right now. We'll hope for good results from the doctor!
Food:
Salad (spinach, tomatoes, lettuce, cheese, bacon...yes, I said bacon), 2 Special K Protein bars, 1 granola bar, 1 banana, 1 bag of 100-calorie baked Chex mix, 1 cheese stick, 1 cup yogurt, bowl of soup, 1 large orange, 2 pieces of toast, 1 cup of hot chocolate, and 1 100-calorie ice cream bar.
Total calories: 1577
Water: 11 glasses
Vitamin: yessir
Exercise: 20 min on the elliptical, about 20 minutes lifting, 15 minutes on a cross-country ski-like machine. Lol!
*I'm not sure how I'll do on my exercise from here on out...my knee is literally KILLING me right now. We'll hope for good results from the doctor!
We have a $3 theater! (and update)
I had no idea that in my town we have a $3 movie theater!!! I get to have the movie theater experience without paying the ridiculous amount, and the theater is so less crowded because they play movies that came out the season before. (I'm not some cheap penny-pincher, I'm just unemployed right now!) For my youngest brother's birthday present we: myself, birthday boy and the 2nd youngest bro, all went to watch Avatar. I treated them to the concession stand and let them buy whatever they wanted- and *&%@! That Jack in the Box commercial that plays about the expensiveness of movie treats is so DEAD on. For a large popcorn, skittles, sour patch watermelon candy, and two medium drinks it was $23.50!! That's like a 300x mark up, but whatever it was his special birthday celebration. (Wow, I sound really cheap, but honestly I'm not, just a little shocked).
Also two teenage boys can consume like rapid fire a whole bucket of popcorn and down the refill on the bucket too. I've always thought that teenage boys had bottomless stomachs, because they never seem to be full.... lol!
Food: Special K w/soymilk, Eggo waffle with 1 tbsp of almond butter, 8 oz. of chocolate soymilk, two handfuls of theater popcorn, lentil soup, and finished the day with a smoothie!
Vitamin- yep!
Water: didn't keep track, but a lot- been guzzling it!
Exercise: a 4.3 mile walk back from the theater- a perfect day to be outside, slightly warm and a gentle breeze making me think summer is almost here.
Avatar is good movie too. Reminds me of a grown up version of Ferngully with a dash of current anthropology and American History.
For my smoothie:
1 cup chocolate soymilk- the lite version has less cals, and tastes the same
1 small banana
1 tbsp almond or peanut butter
Blend all ingredients together till smooth and chunk free. Enjoy! Or blend with some ice to make it extra thick and cool! Very good when protein powder is blended in too.
Also two teenage boys can consume like rapid fire a whole bucket of popcorn and down the refill on the bucket too. I've always thought that teenage boys had bottomless stomachs, because they never seem to be full.... lol!
Food: Special K w/soymilk, Eggo waffle with 1 tbsp of almond butter, 8 oz. of chocolate soymilk, two handfuls of theater popcorn, lentil soup, and finished the day with a smoothie!
Vitamin- yep!
Water: didn't keep track, but a lot- been guzzling it!
Exercise: a 4.3 mile walk back from the theater- a perfect day to be outside, slightly warm and a gentle breeze making me think summer is almost here.
Avatar is good movie too. Reminds me of a grown up version of Ferngully with a dash of current anthropology and American History.
For my smoothie:
1 cup chocolate soymilk- the lite version has less cals, and tastes the same
1 small banana
1 tbsp almond or peanut butter
Blend all ingredients together till smooth and chunk free. Enjoy! Or blend with some ice to make it extra thick and cool! Very good when protein powder is blended in too.
L: Day 2
I'm kinda late on this update....I'm blaming it on the essay I had to finish for a class. Haha.
I think I did pretty well today. Successfully avoided a Starbuck's trip, and a visit down the candy aisle :)
Food: 2 protein bars, 1 large orange, 1 big bag of grapes, 1 hot-pocket (my way of eating on the go), 1 BIG cup of soup, 2 pieces toast, 1 cup hot chocolate, 1 apple, 1 cup yogurt.
Total calories: 1520
Water: kinda failed...got 8 in.
Vitamin: 1
Exercise: 90 minutes of (hard) swimming. I've noticed an improvement in my workouts though! I was able to do 10 back-to-back 100 IMs (for all you non-swimming people, that's 4 lengths of the pool, doing each length a different stroke) without really any trouble. I was able to do this a year ago (before a big weight gain), and now I'm back with it! Yahoo!!
I think I did pretty well today. Successfully avoided a Starbuck's trip, and a visit down the candy aisle :)
Food: 2 protein bars, 1 large orange, 1 big bag of grapes, 1 hot-pocket (my way of eating on the go), 1 BIG cup of soup, 2 pieces toast, 1 cup hot chocolate, 1 apple, 1 cup yogurt.
Total calories: 1520
Water: kinda failed...got 8 in.
Vitamin: 1
Exercise: 90 minutes of (hard) swimming. I've noticed an improvement in my workouts though! I was able to do 10 back-to-back 100 IMs (for all you non-swimming people, that's 4 lengths of the pool, doing each length a different stroke) without really any trouble. I was able to do this a year ago (before a big weight gain), and now I'm back with it! Yahoo!!
Tuesday, May 11
Bra Sizing!
After walking around the mall for a bit being my friend's shopping adviser, we went to Victoria's Secret. Ok, I have to admit I love that store! Between all the pretty things and sweet smells- my girly self, if has money on hand, will leave the store freshly broke. This time I decided to leave my purse at home so as not to be tempted to spend when I need to be saving.
One of the sales associates came over and began to do their thing of telling about all the local sales and products, and then she asked me when the last time I had done a bra sizing. "Ummm like over two or three years ago?" She offered to do a sizing and I'm so glad I did! I mean, I didn't have the money to get a new bra right then, but the fact is that I'm down a size!!! That's right- I've lost 2 inches since I've been working out regularly and choosing to eat healthier! There is a party going on inside of my head, celebrating such a fantastic and unexpected discovery!
The best part is that know I can buy bras from most stores now. Before it was EXTREMELY difficult to find the right size bra, and when I did they were mostly boring and horrifyingly drab. Like I said before I'm really girly. So being able to buy bras (regardless of the fact no one will see them) that I like and have been wanting to get is pretty much the cherry on top of this day.
Also wearing the right fitting bra makes ALL the difference- not only in the way you feel in terms of support, but also in how your clothing fits and it makes you look lighter too. I've been wearing bras that are too big and sheesh, not comfortable or appealing.
One of the sales associates came over and began to do their thing of telling about all the local sales and products, and then she asked me when the last time I had done a bra sizing. "Ummm like over two or three years ago?" She offered to do a sizing and I'm so glad I did! I mean, I didn't have the money to get a new bra right then, but the fact is that I'm down a size!!! That's right- I've lost 2 inches since I've been working out regularly and choosing to eat healthier! There is a party going on inside of my head, celebrating such a fantastic and unexpected discovery!
The best part is that know I can buy bras from most stores now. Before it was EXTREMELY difficult to find the right size bra, and when I did they were mostly boring and horrifyingly drab. Like I said before I'm really girly. So being able to buy bras (regardless of the fact no one will see them) that I like and have been wanting to get is pretty much the cherry on top of this day.
Also wearing the right fitting bra makes ALL the difference- not only in the way you feel in terms of support, but also in how your clothing fits and it makes you look lighter too. I've been wearing bras that are too big and sheesh, not comfortable or appealing.
C: Day 3
Today is a low-motivation day! Grr! But thankfully, strapping on my running shoes and just getting out the door makes things easier. I decided to push myself to jog the whole mile this time- and guess what? I DID!! That's right I'm tooting my own horn! I walked for a little to slow my heart rate down before I did some more jogging and *gasp! I even finished the whole thing by actually running! I need to work up to running/jogging for the 5k and I know, I KNOW I can do it.
Food: Special K with soymilk, 1/2 slice of toast with almond butter, 2 scrambled eggs with mushrooms, spinach and a bit of minced garlic (yum! yum!), a peach light yogurt, a glass of chocolate soymilk, with a serving of veggie casserole, and because it was my dear little brother's birthday I had a little slice of apple pie (another proud moment- I didn't eat the whole slice!).
Calories: 1515-1535 (I'm approximating the casserole)
Water: Still working on it- right now I'm at 8 glasses
Vitamin: YES! Tip- make sure to take with enough food, otherwise they can make you feel not so good.
Exercise: jogged a mile, walked 2 miles + workout DVD 30 mins.
Food: Special K with soymilk, 1/2 slice of toast with almond butter, 2 scrambled eggs with mushrooms, spinach and a bit of minced garlic (yum! yum!), a peach light yogurt, a glass of chocolate soymilk, with a serving of veggie casserole, and because it was my dear little brother's birthday I had a little slice of apple pie (another proud moment- I didn't eat the whole slice!).
Calories: 1515-1535 (I'm approximating the casserole)
Water: Still working on it- right now I'm at 8 glasses
Vitamin: YES! Tip- make sure to take with enough food, otherwise they can make you feel not so good.
Exercise: jogged a mile, walked 2 miles + workout DVD 30 mins.
Monday, May 10
C: Day 2
I loved today! Got to hang out with one of my friends in the afternoon and then spent the rest of the day with my best cousin! AND I found two amazing books at the local thrift store for a mere $6.25! They were in brand new condition and hardcovers too: The Poetry of Robert Frost and Wicked (everyone I know says this book is amazing).
Food: 3/4 cup Special K Almond & Vanilla Cereal with 8 oz. vanilla soymilk, 8 oz. Chocolate soymilk on the side, 1 light peach yogurt, a serving of veggie lasagna (gotta finish those leftovers!), a big carrot, a soft serve vanilla cone (kid's size!), and veggie lasagna for dinner.
Total calories: 1340 (right on the mark) :)
Water: 11 glasses, need to drink some more!!!
Exercise: 1hr. walk for 2.8 miles, leg workout at home for 15 mins. (Legs are super sore now...)
And even had my multi-vitamin too! Yeah, I'm that good! LOL!
Food: 3/4 cup Special K Almond & Vanilla Cereal with 8 oz. vanilla soymilk, 8 oz. Chocolate soymilk on the side, 1 light peach yogurt, a serving of veggie lasagna (gotta finish those leftovers!), a big carrot, a soft serve vanilla cone (kid's size!), and veggie lasagna for dinner.
Total calories: 1340 (right on the mark) :)
Water: 11 glasses, need to drink some more!!!
Exercise: 1hr. walk for 2.8 miles, leg workout at home for 15 mins. (Legs are super sore now...)
And even had my multi-vitamin too! Yeah, I'm that good! LOL!
L: Day 1
I've decided to give an update every day...mainly to keep myself on track, and to give you all the exciting details of my journey!! Haha.
Food:
2 protein bars, 3 cups yogurt, 1 orange, 1 banana, 1 bowl cereal, 1 bag 100-calorie Chex mix, 1 ice cream bar. PLUS I went out to dinner with my mom (and made healthy choices). Had 1/2 a Caesar salad and 1/2 a bowl of chicken noodle soup. I couldn't count those calories eating out (obviously) and I know I went over my 1600 limit. But the total calories for the rest of my food is 1100.
Water: 10 glasses
Vitamin: 1
Exercise: 20 min running, 20 min weights, 20 min biking.
Food:
2 protein bars, 3 cups yogurt, 1 orange, 1 banana, 1 bowl cereal, 1 bag 100-calorie Chex mix, 1 ice cream bar. PLUS I went out to dinner with my mom (and made healthy choices). Had 1/2 a Caesar salad and 1/2 a bowl of chicken noodle soup. I couldn't count those calories eating out (obviously) and I know I went over my 1600 limit. But the total calories for the rest of my food is 1100.
Water: 10 glasses
Vitamin: 1
Exercise: 20 min running, 20 min weights, 20 min biking.
Sunday, May 9
Hey There! I'm...
Awesome Loser Girl Laila. Just a little about me and why I'm doing this blog.
I can remember the first time I've been told I was overweight (that I can remember at least). I was in the fourth grade, and a fellow classmate was making a cruel joke, at my expense. Ever since that day, I've found myself uncomfortable in my own skin, embarrassed of how I looked, and longing to have a body that I would be proud of.
Throughout the years I have tried everything humanly possible to get the weight off. And at a time, I succeeded. For three years in high school I was a member of the swim team, and working out regularly, as well as being a member of the Weight Watchers program, took the pounds off easily. But I look back on that time and, sadly, I thought of myself as "fat" back then too. Since then the weight has come on and off, on and off. But for me, it's not only a physical issue. It's an emotional one too.
Because of my always considering myself "fat", my self-esteem and confidence have plummeted to the floor. I feel as though I CAN'T feel good about myself because I'm not at my target weight / size. Now, I'm not only working on the calorie-counting, but also teaching myself to love ME for who I am. It is much easier said than done, but I know I can do it. And in some ways I NEED to do this. For my own good.
I have participated in a 90-day challenge before this and lost nearly 20 pounds simply by eating healthier (1600 calorie limit per day), exercising more, and drinking more water. I extremely happy with my results, but I want to keep going as well. My overall goal at the moment is to lose 20 more pounds. But of course, along with the weight goal is the training myself to love me for who I am. I am doing this blog not only to post the results for my own sake, but to get some support and to maybe, just maybe inspire someone out there to do the same.
:)
I can remember the first time I've been told I was overweight (that I can remember at least). I was in the fourth grade, and a fellow classmate was making a cruel joke, at my expense. Ever since that day, I've found myself uncomfortable in my own skin, embarrassed of how I looked, and longing to have a body that I would be proud of.
Throughout the years I have tried everything humanly possible to get the weight off. And at a time, I succeeded. For three years in high school I was a member of the swim team, and working out regularly, as well as being a member of the Weight Watchers program, took the pounds off easily. But I look back on that time and, sadly, I thought of myself as "fat" back then too. Since then the weight has come on and off, on and off. But for me, it's not only a physical issue. It's an emotional one too.
Because of my always considering myself "fat", my self-esteem and confidence have plummeted to the floor. I feel as though I CAN'T feel good about myself because I'm not at my target weight / size. Now, I'm not only working on the calorie-counting, but also teaching myself to love ME for who I am. It is much easier said than done, but I know I can do it. And in some ways I NEED to do this. For my own good.
I have participated in a 90-day challenge before this and lost nearly 20 pounds simply by eating healthier (1600 calorie limit per day), exercising more, and drinking more water. I extremely happy with my results, but I want to keep going as well. My overall goal at the moment is to lose 20 more pounds. But of course, along with the weight goal is the training myself to love me for who I am. I am doing this blog not only to post the results for my own sake, but to get some support and to maybe, just maybe inspire someone out there to do the same.
:)
C: Day 1
Water: 10 glasses
Food: two salads (avocado, yellow & red peppers, spinach, carrots, tomatoes, croutons, & red onion) one of them with some cheddar cheese, a serving of veggie lasagna, 8 oz of chocolate soymilk and two Orange Cream soda-pops.
Calories total: between 1100 and 1200 calories
1 multi-vitamin
Exercise: walking/jogging 3 miles (for an hour) & Cardio-Max dvd 30 minutes
Food: two salads (avocado, yellow & red peppers, spinach, carrots, tomatoes, croutons, & red onion) one of them with some cheddar cheese, a serving of veggie lasagna, 8 oz of chocolate soymilk and two Orange Cream soda-pops.
Calories total: between 1100 and 1200 calories
1 multi-vitamin
Exercise: walking/jogging 3 miles (for an hour) & Cardio-Max dvd 30 minutes
Hello My Name is...
Awesome Loser Girl Claire! I'm one of those people who suck at individual plans- you know, trying to workout by myself doesn't work kind of thing. Likewise, trying to lose weight is frankly a pain the ass, sometimes literally too.
For as long as I can remember I've been "overweight." I'm sick of this. I've see people make the changes, I've seen morbidly obese people work and become healthy people. One of my best friends from college who looked like my twin during the school year watched what she act and walked daily and has lost over 30 lbs. Needless to say, we don't look like twins anymore. Thing is, deep down I know I can do the same thing. I KNOW I can lose the weight. It comes down to do I want to lose the weight? For most people this question is well a little retarded, come on who wants to be overweight? But for me, it's been a part of my identity, I've used food to deal with my emotions and even to entertain myself while being bored.
Screw that.
I don't want to be overweight another day. And since I'm in control of this body of mine, I'm going to change things. And you, well whoever reads this blog, will be witness to the changes. You'll be privy to my good days, my days where I slip up, my successes and failures. I plan on posting every day what I eat, the day's calorie totals (if I can get the info), how much water I drink, if I have my vitamin (because this is an accountability tool for ME), if I exercise: what I do and for how long. I'll also post some other stuff, but the majority of it will be these kind of mundane details. Whew, this is long!
My main goal is to lose weight steadily over time, I am working at losing 5 lbs at a time. My second goal is to train for various running events that I've signed up for over the summer. My third goal is to use food ONLY for FUEL- I need to break my reliance on food for comfort, stress relief, and entertainment. If my best friend from college can lose 30 lbs so can I!!
For as long as I can remember I've been "overweight." I'm sick of this. I've see people make the changes, I've seen morbidly obese people work and become healthy people. One of my best friends from college who looked like my twin during the school year watched what she act and walked daily and has lost over 30 lbs. Needless to say, we don't look like twins anymore. Thing is, deep down I know I can do the same thing. I KNOW I can lose the weight. It comes down to do I want to lose the weight? For most people this question is well a little retarded, come on who wants to be overweight? But for me, it's been a part of my identity, I've used food to deal with my emotions and even to entertain myself while being bored.
Screw that.
I don't want to be overweight another day. And since I'm in control of this body of mine, I'm going to change things. And you, well whoever reads this blog, will be witness to the changes. You'll be privy to my good days, my days where I slip up, my successes and failures. I plan on posting every day what I eat, the day's calorie totals (if I can get the info), how much water I drink, if I have my vitamin (because this is an accountability tool for ME), if I exercise: what I do and for how long. I'll also post some other stuff, but the majority of it will be these kind of mundane details. Whew, this is long!
My main goal is to lose weight steadily over time, I am working at losing 5 lbs at a time. My second goal is to train for various running events that I've signed up for over the summer. My third goal is to use food ONLY for FUEL- I need to break my reliance on food for comfort, stress relief, and entertainment. If my best friend from college can lose 30 lbs so can I!!
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