L: Day 5

Well today, I started off counting my calories, and then I kind of went downhill in terms of keeping track. HOWEVER, doing a quick mental look back of how I did today, I feel like I ate mainly when I needed to, not just for boredom. In fact, this evening I avoided a big bowl of ice cream with a big bowl of fresh strawberries, and a would-be doughnut stop ( I was craving) for a 100-calorie ice cream bar at home. For me it's been extremely important to acknowledge my cravings, not to pretend they don't exist. Over the years I've tried so many diets and fads in which I had to deny what I wanted. Looking back, that is the reason that many of those failed. I need to treat myself every once in a while. The trick is substituting lower-calorie foods in doing so.

I was thinking today about the goals that I have. My entire life (since about age 9), I've been struggling with my weight. I have seen the number that appears on the scale and have been intimidated. I no longer have a NUMBER as my goal, because I realize now that if I go at it with that perspective, I will never be happy. My main goal: to be happy and confident in my own skin. To love my body for what it is, not for how much I weigh alone.

My update (other than calories)
water: 8 glasses.
vitamin: i forgot. oops. tomorrow.....
exercise: 20 min on the stationary bike, some lifting of weights.
*I get my knee checked out next week and will know then what I am / am not able to do in terms of exercise.

**For the last couple days I've been wearing a pair of sweatpants that I got as a senior in high school (2 years ago). I have not been able to fit into them since then. But I tried them on and guess what.... THEY FIT! Woot woot! Go-o-o progress.