Claire: Yeah...

I've been lacking on keeping up with my posts. Sorry about that. It's been pretty crazy over here this past week. Between some very stressful events, working some ridiculous hours and the Boyfriend being back things have been all over the place.

I've lost another pound and a half since my last post too! Very cool, so now I'm at a new all time low.

Since I had the day off and so did the Boyfriend we got together and hung out at his parents' house, playing with his little boy and his siblings, and talking with his folks. He lives out in the country and we ended up hiking around the woods that are on the property. There's this huge tree that they call the "climbing tree" and the Boyfriend and I scaled up pretty high. The view from way up there was incredible, you could see for miles and miles. His mom made us dinner and we had a great time just being with his family.

Food: two bowls of Golden Grahams w/2% milk; 1/2 pb and honey sandwich and 1/2 an apple; some spaghetti; three graham crackers w/nutella; a small serving of brown rice and steamed veggies for dinner; and then I got home and had a couple of tortillas w/butter.
Calories, protein, water: unknowns.
Exercise: long steep high + running back; climbing a huge tree; running around the property; and playing around with the Boyfriend's siblings (all of them @ home are younger than him.

Claire: Lovin' Today!

I've been having swimming withdrawals for a while now. Today Laila and I went to this sweet outdoor pool and had a blast! Must go there again soon! Now I've been to a tanning salon like one time before but since the wedding is tomorrow I thought I'd give it another shot. So we found this tanning place and once I got home my youngest brother said, "you look like you've been living in Hawaii!" Which means that it must have worked. :) But since I was hanging out with Laila and then came home to a big ol'bbq with friends and family I really didn't/couldn't keep track of my calories or foods today. But here's what I remember:

Food: pbj; 2 scrambled eggs with a 1/4 cup of low fat shredded cheddar cheese in a tortilla; a slice of cantaloupe; a chocolate special k protein bar, two chocolate chip Sunbelt granola bars, a light and fit peach yogurt, about a half dozen cherries; watermelon chunks and a slice of cantaloupe; more watermelon and some macaroni salad; a diet root beer and a half along with a good handful of chips with some salsa.

So I'm just gonna "guess" but I'm pretty sure I went WAY over today. :( No idea about my protein either.
Exercise: swimming around, laughing, some walking around, blah blah blah..

Tomorrow is the wedding! I still can't seem to wrap my head around the FACT that he's getting married! The first of us kids. I probably won't be posting anything tomorrow-just sayin', after all I'm leaving around noon, the wedding starts around 3pm and the reception is in the evening is bound to go late that night. Have a good day tomorrow- I know I will!

Oh yeah, almost forgot! I tried on one of Laila's new dresses and it's a size I thought would be too small, especially in the bust area and it's too big!!!! This means I've lost like two dress sizes now!!!! WOOOO-HOOO!!!!! (Yes, I'm that happy and excited about it! Who wouldn't be?)

Claire: Today Ended Very Well!

All I can say is my Boyfriend is super amazing, even when he's far away. Things started out a little stressful today, so I painted for some stress relief!I'm really liking how it's turning out.
Thankfully everything was resolved this evening. And no work today!!!! YAY! Plus on the scale I saw a new low too! How awesome is that?!

Food: a slice of toast w/two scrambled eggs; a low-fat toasted mozzarella cheese sandwich w/pineapple; pbj sandwich (big surprise right?); more pineapple; and a half-pbj for dinner.
Calories: 1301
Protein: 54.5 g
Water: almost enough
Exercise: LAZY day! Felt so good!

L: Day 29

Today was a verry busy day today, so I didn't really have to worry about eating. Plus an early morning dentist visit that numbed half my mouth curbed the hunger as well.

Food:
Bowl honey nut cherrios, 1 protein bar, bread roll, 1 bag 100-calorie chips, 1 bowl tomato soup + toasted cheese sandwich, 1 banana, 1 100-calorie ice cream bar.
Calories: 1550
Vitamin: yes
Exercise: 1 hour moderate swimming (not real hard, but the sprints killed me a little)

L: Yippppe!!

I tried on a dress earlier tonight that I got for the Christmas of '08 but never seemed to fit right. It's a sleek little black dress, one that is hard to disquise the body under, meaning that I haven't even worn it outside the house yet.

And guess what.... IT FITS!!!!
Yahooo! Yay for results!

Also, I looked into the records of the adult swim team I'm on, and turns out I set a record for the top 12 in the mile swim I did last summer! All this time and I didn't know I made it (top 12 in the state. Way cool).
So I think that's the motivation I've been lacking.

Also (this is the last also. I promise) I was listening to the radio tonight and the topic was overweight teen girls and their self-esteem issues. I found myself nodding my head in agreement to nearly everything that was said. As I've said before, I have definite body issues, for accepting myself physically for what I am. I remember once taking someone's comment as "aren't you a curvy girl" as an insult, hinting that I was fat (granted, as I look back, this was the time where I was at my lightest weight and extremely fit). It's just so sad how I've let other people's comments bring me down over the years. Anyways, back to the talk show. Someone was saying that it's very popular to think that "if I could only look like THIS/ be THIS size, I would be happy", when infact, that idea is false. If one cannot accept themself for the way they are, no physical factor is going to boost that self esteem.

Now, while I have a certain size / weight that I would LIKE to be, I am no longer making that a priority. I am stepping back and working on accepting myself for who I am RIGHT NOW and going from there.

Just a little insight into my night.