L: Yippppe!!

I tried on a dress earlier tonight that I got for the Christmas of '08 but never seemed to fit right. It's a sleek little black dress, one that is hard to disquise the body under, meaning that I haven't even worn it outside the house yet.

And guess what.... IT FITS!!!!
Yahooo! Yay for results!

Also, I looked into the records of the adult swim team I'm on, and turns out I set a record for the top 12 in the mile swim I did last summer! All this time and I didn't know I made it (top 12 in the state. Way cool).
So I think that's the motivation I've been lacking.

Also (this is the last also. I promise) I was listening to the radio tonight and the topic was overweight teen girls and their self-esteem issues. I found myself nodding my head in agreement to nearly everything that was said. As I've said before, I have definite body issues, for accepting myself physically for what I am. I remember once taking someone's comment as "aren't you a curvy girl" as an insult, hinting that I was fat (granted, as I look back, this was the time where I was at my lightest weight and extremely fit). It's just so sad how I've let other people's comments bring me down over the years. Anyways, back to the talk show. Someone was saying that it's very popular to think that "if I could only look like THIS/ be THIS size, I would be happy", when infact, that idea is false. If one cannot accept themself for the way they are, no physical factor is going to boost that self esteem.

Now, while I have a certain size / weight that I would LIKE to be, I am no longer making that a priority. I am stepping back and working on accepting myself for who I am RIGHT NOW and going from there.

Just a little insight into my night.