Awesome Loser Girl Laila

Awesome Loser Girl Laila. Just a little about me and why I'm doing this blog.

I can remember the first time I've been told I was overweight (that I can remember at least). I was in the fourth grade, and a fellow classmate was making a cruel joke, at my expense. Ever since that day, I've found myself uncomfortable in my own skin, embarrassed of how I looked, and longing to have a body that I would be proud of.

Throughout the years I have tried everything humanly possible to get the weight off. And at a time, I succeeded. For three years in high school I was a member of the swim team, and working out regularly, as well as being a member of the Weight Watchers program, took the pounds off easily. But I look back on that time and, sadly, I thought of myself as "fat" back then too. Since then the weight has come on and off, on and off. But for me, it's not only a physical issue. It's an emotional one too.

Because of my always considering myself "fat", my self-esteem and confidence have plummeted to the floor. I feel as though I CAN'T feel good about myself because I'm not at my target weight / size. Now, I'm not only working on the calorie-counting, but also teaching myself to love ME for who I am. It is much easier said than done, but I know I can do it. And in some ways I NEED to do this. For my own good.

I have participated in a 90-day challenge before this and lost nearly 20 pounds simply by eating healthier (1600 calorie limit per day), exercising more, and drinking more water. I extremely happy with my results, but I want to keep going as well. My overall goal at the moment is to lose 20 more pounds. But of course, along with the weight goal is the training myself to love me for who I am. I am doing this blog not only to post the results for my own sake, but to get some support and to maybe, just maybe inspire someone out there to do the same.

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